Monday, April 7, 2008

Mystery Revealed :)

This poem has always had a very special place in my heart. There is a depth to it that draws me in every time I read its words. I will not go through all the meaning that I find in it, so that you may find whatever the words have for you. I post it as a gift for all that read. (And for those that are curious, just remember: curiosity leads to questions, questions leads to searching, searching leads to knowledge, knowledge leads to understanding, understanding leads to God - but that's just my opinion...I could be wrong.) Blessings :)

The O-Filler
-Alastair Reid



One noon in the library, I watched a man--
imagine!-filling in O's, a little, rumpled
nobody of a man, who licked his stub of pencil
and leaned over every O with a loving care,
shading it neatly, exactly to its edges,
until the open pages
were pocked and dotted with solid O's, like villages
and capitals on a map. And yet, so peppered,
somehow the book looked lived in and complete.

That whole afternoon, as the light outside softened,
and the library groaned woodly,
he worked and worked, his o-so-patient shading
descending like an eyelid over each open O
for page after page. Not once did he miss one,
or hover even a moment over an a,
or an e or a p or a g. Only the O's--
oodles of O's, O's multitudinous, O's manifold,
O's italic and roman.
and what light on his crumpled face when he discovered--
as I supposed--odd woords, like zoo and ooze,
polo, oolong and odontology!

Think now, in that limitless library,
all round the steep-shelved walls, bulging in their bindings,
books stood, waiting. Heaven knows how many
he had so far filled, but no matter, there still were
uncountable volumes of O-laden prose, and odes
with inflated capital O's (in the manner of Shelley),
O-bearing Bibles and biographies,
even whole sections devoted to O alone,
all his for the filling. Glory, glory, glory!
How lovely and open and endless the world must have seemed to him,
how utterly clear-cut! Think of it. A pencil
was all he needed. Life was one wide O.

Anyway, why in the end should O's not be closed
as eyes are? I envied him. After all,
sitting across from him, had I accomplished
anything as firm as he had, or as fruitful?
What could I show? a handful of scrawled lines,
and afternoon yawned and wondered away,
and a growing realization that in time
even my scribbled words would come
under his grubby thumb, and the blinds be drawn
on all my O's. And only this thought for comfort--
that when he comes to this poem, a proper joy
may amaze his wizened face, and, O, a pure pleasure
make his meticulous pencil quiver.

6 comments:

Zombie said...

OK. Got It.

Anonymous said...

Thanks from your comments and counsel Brad. It means a lot to me.

George Weis said...

Good stuff brother! Good to hear from you again. How are things where you are? I see you must be busy :D
I pray your week is full of peace and His blessings for His names sake. Keep carrying on brother!

-george-

Anonymous said...

Hey Brad. Thank you so much for your encouragement today. I'm sorry I took that post down. I just couldn't stand the way I sounded. Maybe I read it too many times? But it started to horrify me.
Your comment was so nice, and I just wanted to tell you thanks again. My name is Julie by the way. I don't see any reason for it to be a secret anymore. I'm not sure I'll post anything else.
And did I say in my above comment, "Thanks from..."?
Geez. What a crap day.

Brad said...

Thanks George for the prayers. I am in need of all that you guys have. I have been VERY busy with work and kids (my son is playing baseball....man that takes up a lot of time...but in a good way) :) Work had slowed down (that's why I had some time to post) but is now is full swing! So my life right now is..Work, Baseball, Sleep...Work, Baseball, Sleep...and so on and so on. So, all is well, but very tired.

Julie, thanks for your words. I too have found a lot of encouragement from you guys. It is really nice to find other people out there that see the world the way you do and hope that in some small way we can make it better for those that Christ brings in our paths. That is why I have really gotten on board with your "this is my church" idea. I have a great church that my family and I are a part of, but just like any church it has its gaps for me as an individual. That is where you, Adam, George, and the others come in for me. My blog is a way to communicate how I feel about what I see around me, and it is nice to be able to "talk" (if you can call writing back and forth talking) about that with other people.

When I was working with youth about five years ago, they use to say things like, "My friend in Washington is really going through a hard time." I would think to ask them, "How do you have a friend that you have never met face to face or even heard the sound of their voice on the phone?" They would just look at me a say, "They are just my friend, and I know they ar my friend." I did not know what they were talking about and could not understand that world. Well, I am beginning to understand now....because I see you guys as my friends....and brothers...and sisters. God bless you all.

Anonymous said...

I see you as my friend too Brad. Thanks for that, and for your writing. It always speaks to me.